[The last bit of “Haunted Places”]
I’ve written in another place, “Don’t you just love the sound of children playing in the hall. But then. You stop. And realize. You live alone.”
I have experienced noises in other parts of the house when Bonnie, a terrier, is sitting beside me and we’re alone. A chair scoots across hardwood floor. It makes that sound. In a fairly modern home doors sometimes swing shut, but a closed door swings open makes me look up to see who has come home only no one is there.
Bonnie watches movement in her attentive protective behavior, low throaty growl as she lifts her head from the braided rug then she looks at me in what amounts to a flash of self-conscious awareness (yes dogs are sentient beings) that borders on embarrassment. She lowers her head and continues napping.
Living with unpredictable entrances, a bit of hovering, and then a poof-they-are-gone departure has been so much the norm I feel as if I’ve missed something in long periods of inactivity and long for foot-falls, creaking doors, hovering entities, or mildly annoying pranks. It’s as if the departed ones are demonstrating they still have a presence with the living, but more likely they’re saying, “We see you.”
As I started describing my creative, funny Aunt who was forever the center of attention at séances and “after-hours” parties I will end with her. She made a rather “dress for dinner” and sometime dour group livelier. She is sadly missed but powerfully alive in my memory and especially in that little cranial crevice– a powerhouse in my mind, known as my imagination. So when I want to be like her I go into that wardrobe of my imagination and enter laughing as Auntie would have, well in my own clothes.
Perhaps it is so, if one can be “forever the center of attention”, I hope when I visit living family members in future they’ll be receptive and delay dialing Ghost Busters or perhaps give me the guest bedroom, the small one, with the pretty view of the graveyard.
[I’ve categorized this section to include “Backgrounds”. I am not sure what that means at present or if I will use the classification again but I “felt” it to be a proper heading. So I went with it. Your suggestions for a more fitting “Category” will be most appreciated.]